Matt, Uncut: One . . .
One.
A song lyric said that “one is the loneliest number that you’ll ever do.”
I used to think that was complete and total BS; I used to LOVE being alone. Well, maybe I just used to make myself love being alone . . . either way, for the longest time, its what I did and who I was. A lone wolf. I didn’t have friends either because I didn’t want or couldn’t make them, but either way, I told myself and told myself and told myself that I was supposed to be alone so much that I finally believed me.
Then reality sunk in.
People aren’t wired to be alone. God even said so in various ways in the bible. We just aren’t. Once that terrible truth became known to me, I couldn’t unknow it. But much worse, I couldn’t do anything to change it now that I wanted to . . .
The fact that you had to force yourself to believe sometihng that was never true-allows it to be much easier to accept the truth. Allowing yourself to feel will aid your transition. The most important thing is that you acknowledged that being alone is not your destiny-it would have been a lot worst had you never accepted the truth.
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